Birth #2 The One I Didn’t Know I Could Say “No” To.

When I became pregnant with my second daughter, I had hope that this time it would be different.

There was a part of me that was still affected by my first caesarean, that thought “Maybe this time I’ll have a better experience.

But I didn’t really know what that meant. I didn’t know how to ask for something else or what that would even look like.

I was still in the mindset that the Doctor knows best.

So, I went along with everything- the checkups, the appointments, the monitoring. I wanted to believe that things would just work out.

I went to hospital when I thought I was in labor. I didn’t know about the stages of labor- I was simply doing what I thought was right. What I had been told was safest. They examined me. I was only 1cm dilated.

And then……. nothing.